b4 i make myself to start writing this entry,i’ve checked n rechecked if i ever come across writing bout my ‘kisah sedey’ (bak kata achik..huhu)..seems,i only left a hint,mayb that time i was ashamed of ‘worldwide’ it,mayb afraid of what people might think..mayb..

for me,my ‘kisah sedey’ was not really sad at all,it was a meaningful lesson in a lifetime.i knew him as a frenz,he was act my classmate n after lost contact for a year,we met in a contest n changing hp num..n everything started..(we only smsing,never hanging out,never met even live in the same state!) i hardly believed that after sometimes,somehow i suddenly luv him so much!y do i luv him that time?becoz he really words-of-advice kind of person.always be a reminder to me.i still clearly remember,the time when i was so upset,so afraid of my pointer,he comforted me by reminding me of ‘keajaiban doa’,reminding me the existence of Yang Maha Penyayang.by having him,i was more thrilled becoz we did many ‘good deed’ 2gede like puase rejab n etc (err..dh tak bpe ingat..ehehe)..everyday,i was so thankful to Him by that person’s presence in my life.y i chose my feeling 2wards him to enter my heart?becoz he fulfilled most of the criteria of my mr. right (i thought so that time).i didnt go 4 looks act,but i want a husband who not only can b a leader,but sum1 who can accept my critics n comments without heart feeling,sum1 who i can discuss anything (religion,books etc) n who can accompany me to any ‘majlis ilmu’,also not forgetting,together teaching our children reading Al-Quran..huhu ;-p

then,the ‘tak best thing’ started when i felt that i cannot lost him,cannot live without him (biar betul..eheheh),so,how i’m gonna make him realize me feeling all those things 2wards him?by being outspoken myself,i decided to let him know..i told him everything (without doing istikharah)..and,i was dissapointed,as he didnt feel the way i felt..at that time,i was ‘ermm ok,at least i told him’..after that,i stop smsing wif him 4 a while,try to throw away my feeling..but i cant n it become worst when i keep crying after i prayed becoz i really cant endure the pain..i felt so hurt inside..i always ask to myself,what God want me to c,always pleading to Him to help me..

when i totally cured,(n to tell the truth He vanished the feeling till i didnt felt a thing towards that person..)i realized why i was happened to haf such feeling like that,becoz i ask for it,i was keen to know how it feel 2b deeply in luv to sum1(beside family n cloz frens) but still b reasoned by it.to experience the situation,how,by luving sum1,made u close to God..to feel ‘perit jugak ye syg org ni..’..as at least,i know how to comfort those who face difficulties in luv,being hurt by luv for instance..becoz i felt it..i’m so grateful to Him for giving me such a lesson.the afterwards (another person,i think i luv him,but it was nonesense act) just a crap,i got blinded wif a ‘relationship’ which almost made me a person ‘that abide the law of God’..huhu..scary..

luv or CINTA is not everything in the world..there are so much things which are more wonderful than luv..one of it is,the patience of our parents towards our misbehave..our parents love us without condition..they are the only people in the world who can bear wif our ‘up n down’ behaviour..n act,y bother wif luv?when we r ready,He will present us wif a person who suit us..moreover,He Knows better..when u think that u r in luv wif sum1,or mayb fall in the 1st sight luv,take time to ponder,y did u luv that person?did ur luv wud gain redha from the Yang Maha Mengasihani?huhu..think again..;-)

"aku mengasihimu kerana agama yang ada padamu,jika kau hilangkan agama dalam dirimu,maka hilanglah kasihku padamu" -imam nawawi (if i’m not mistaken)-

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