it’s hard act to do everything than to say it..i sternly told myself that i am strong,i am ok,but act i am not,becoz i realize that i am closely going to pieces everytime i tried my best to hold myself 2gede..these two days,i kept thinking,calculating,is that the best solution 4 the case?the wise decision i shud make?am i juz doing it for my personal interest?am i selfish?still,after i ‘call it off’,i hardly believe that i’m doing it.n y,those pearls shud came out?i felt stupid..so stupid..

but what make me felt a little bit ok,when i thought of how i am so afraid of His ‘Anger’,so afraid of not receiving His ‘Nur’ anymore,i am damn afraid when i am totally lost of asking for His Forgiveness..i am afraid..if i still be like that..i am weak,so His Reminders are the only way to make me stronger,can make me feel better..although it might sound foolish or juz an escapism,still i am certain that i do the rite thing at the very least..i am listening to at Taubah to cheer me up this morning,i dont know what else to do..n for my dear nadd,thanx for always be there..always..

p(^_^)q
gambaru!

p/s:i luv dis song so much..esp this part

As long as sunlight lights the sky
Light of love will be found in these eyes of mine
And I will shine that light for you
You’re the only one, I’ll ever give this heart to
What I’m trying to say is, nothing will change this
There’ll be no time you won’t find me there
Cause I will always be there
You will always have all my love

(from : dat’s when i’ll stop lovin’ u)